Looking Back ...

this time of the year, for some totally incomprehensible reason, there seems to be the urge to look back on the year that's just ending ...
as for me I must admit it wasn't really a good year ... actually it feels like it's been one of the worst years ever ...
starting with the tragic death of my fav actor ... filled with getting sick over weeks ... rough RL-days from SL and RL colliding and mingeling too hard... some (luckily minor) family disasters ... feeling burnt out from work ... seeing friends leave SL and couples break up in RL and SL ... a deeply hurting experience in SL ... leaving the band I was in ... self doubts ... and a growing depression (quite unusual for an optimistic person like me) which made me even care not a damn for any of both lifes at some stage ...
a long row of gray days ... guess that's kind of midlife crisis ...













But everyone and everything deserves a second, a closer look ... even such a bloddy damn year ...

and hey ... there have been sunny days ... wonderful foggy full moon nights ... I made new friends and met long lost old friends ... I was lucky to have work when others didn't ... I got to know new music, new books, new funny and interesting stuff on the web ... I got friends who stay with me through my moods ...
and, most of all, a loving family to be proud of ...













There's some stuff I gotta learn from that year ...
starting with being less egoistic (damn ... me uses 'I' way too often ... lol) without giving up myself ...
and learning to cope with the dark clouds when not being able to get rid of them ...

me grabs my good old Fender and starts to play again ... first time after quite a long break ...



















PS ... thanx Boon, for bringing color and sun in those pix in less than 5 seconds ;-) ... but making the warmth last a lot longer ;-*

Blogger Challenge: Mayala's Bag

I saw this Blogger Challenge on Guen's Crimson Flow Blog today and thought 'WOW, what a tidy bag' ... ;-)
and then I had a look at my bag ... *grins*

1. old floppy 2. girl's stuff 3. flyers + cards 4. watch (out of order)
5. old sox from a shoe-shop 6. hand lotion, deo etc. 7. lots of papers, shopping lists, sales checks, notes ... 8. booklet for adresses + notes 9. pens 10. lip balms 11. tesa 12. stamps for my daughter
13. liquorice 14. nail file and kajal (should be in 15) 15. small bag for more girl's stuff 16. shopping bag 17. chewing gum (yak ... some of it should be sorted out) 18. mmmhhh ... sweets 19. old accus
20. shells from vacition in the Netherlands 21. hankie collection
22. waste 23. elastics 24. 11 cent (WoooHooo ... I'm rich)
25. a locket ... 26. a notebook with my ideas and sketches for
LoonAtic Wear

mobile is loading ... keys are in my pants' pocket ... wallet in my jacket ...
and some stuff I didn't put back into my bag after taking the pic ... *grins*

Did you ever hear the stars whisper ?

I'm just back from a 1 hour bicycle ride through the night after the rehearsal.
And what a ride ...
after a wonderful sunny day it is an absolutely clear night ...
frost on the trail glittering in the light of my bike ...
and, with the lights of the towns and villages far away, a gorgeous starlit sky above ...
I had to stop a few times to switch off the light, to just stand there ... looking up, being amazed ...
if it hadn't been that cold (about -7°C) I had lied down and watched for hours ...
So I continued my way home ... Orion in front or beside of me ...
Type O Negative warming my ears ...
and the whisper of the stars in my heart ...

;-)))

It's great to go thru blogs and read good news ... there've been too many sad ones lately ...
congratz ;-)))